Memorial Day Weekend Part 1

After a long week, of doing minimal work at work. Friday rolls around, and there are only 3 of us there. So I figure I should leave early. However, leave early to do what? I know, find someone new to meet, and meet someone I already "know". So I log on to msn messenger, and see that this dude who goes to UMD is on. I chat for a lil bit, and ask if he remembers me. He says yeh, so I see if he wants to meet. I head to maryland from work, and I wait at the stamp. I walk around looking for him, but I don't see the person who I thought he was. I didn't take his number, so I email his msn. About an hour later, he responds from his phone, so I call him. He was just leavin, and I tell him to meet me in front of the building. Then I see him, and he sees me, and we both realize we are mistaken. And we almost make an attempt to make the best of it. We walk around and decide to get some food. I attempt to ask questions and start a conversation, but he in his proper, timid asian style gives one word answers, and after we eat our McDs snack wraps, he says he has to go, and we part ways. And that's one person to cross off the buddy list. Lesson relearned... its ok to say "No", you don't have to be a friend to every one, and Asians suck!!(j/k they know how to make rice, and lead in technology, so they're still cool)

Next, because Taint is on Sunday Night and I try to have a balanced weekend, I decide that I should spend Friday/Saturday nights with the older(non-gay) friends. Friday night, we went to a friends house for haystacks. Not my fave meal, but I guess it beats bread. After we ate, names of a few... ummm "effeminate" guys came out. And the homophobic-ish comments came out, some of which were funny. But anyways, one of my roomates posed a question to the group. "What would you do, if you're son... turned out to be gay?" The tone and attitude of the room turn into one of despondence and contemplation. No one really answered the question, a few snide jokes were made, and then they gave a few theories or stories they've heard about how people become gay. Eventually the conversation went to religion, and then on to music, and listening to the new Tye album.

The next day, after church, we passed by Union Station so the other roommate can go to a store real quick. As we were waiting, and talking in the car, there were three interesting people-watching moments. First, this dude walking around had blue fingernails, which one guy pointed out to us. Later, he actually whipped out the polish, and continued to do his nails, right there on the street. At which point, my friend figured out he was gay, cuz Man + Nail Polish = Gay. Second, this guy was standing behind us, and he was HOT!! I think he was a student, hand a keychain with "Yale" on it. And he was gorgeous! So I took a number of glances at him, while the other people in the car talked about that first dude. Thirdly, a car pulled up next to us, and had a dog in it. Which got the attention of the other people in the car. As they were looking at the car, a guy coming out of union station got in, and gave the other guy a kiss on the lips. Which caught us all by surprise, and yielded "not so nice" remarks from my friends. So I think about telling them some of the truth, about how I feel, what I think about, who I chill with, and where I go. But these little situations, tend to make me believe that they can't handle it. And in the closet, I remain.

Saturday night, I was going to attempt to go to DC, check out some black pride event, but before I got dressed, some really good friends from college called to see if I could hangout. So I decided to go with them. Cuz they are good friends, and deserve my attention. I remember one of the last times we really hung out, how amazingly rude I was to them. We were going to see a movie, The Prestige, at Tysons that night. But before I met up with them, I was helping an online friend complete a computer project. Cuz IM'ing on my phone, is easy, I continued to help him. Even while in the movie theater. So much so, that some random person near me, asked me to close my phone cuz the light was distracting. I then, covered the light with my jacket and continued to help my friend with his project. Eventually we finished it, over an hour into the movie. As I look back, I wonder if that person would have done the same for me at that time... No. Would they do it now?... most likely not. But that experience does help me realize how I should change, my attitude. Cherish and enjoy the friends I have. Its good to make new friends and all, but keep it in perspective. As the saying goes, "Don't make someone your priority, when you are only their option."