And there it goes...

Its been a long time, over a month, since I've posted on here, about whats going on with me. So here we go. The past month has been so up and down on so many levels. And it seems, there's been many thoughts, but no final action or end result. Family issues, minor old friend/roommate issues, and personal ideas/inner battles/dreams/hopes/feelings.
My family will be moving soon, where? and how?, no one knows. My relationship with my roommates and many older friends have been put on hold, and I'm not sure why I don't resume them. And even though I can let them know where I've been and why, I don't really feel like it'll be of any help. Work is alright, and my shopping list has grown, but that'll take care of itself, I guess. Personally there is much too much going on.
I've allowed myself to go too far with certain emotions. I've felt like it was possible, and took certain actions and words to give my heart the right to do what it wants. My mind however, is the reasonable one, and it has never stopped trying to keep me under control. Anyways, my mind was right. The heart shouldn't be free to feel/do whatever it wants. My only wish, is that I was stronger earlier to stop myself, before going so far down the valley.
I've also came out to an old friend who lives in Philly. I figure he's known me since I was 11, so for almost half my life. So he took it easily, and was like "it won't affect our friendship, you're like my bro, and nothing could change that". So that was somewhat empowering, but not really cuz I figured he was one of the more "liberal" friends that I've had. On the same note, I've been dropping, well allow hints, to my roommates to begin to question-ish. Like leaving the rainbow wristband, in the open in my room. And at least one roommate has seen it before, and who knows will maybe ask about it one day.
On a happier note, I will be going to ATL next week for a work conference. I'll be leaving on the Sunday and Returning on the wednesday. I have a presentation with a co-worker on the monday, and he'll be leaving on the tuesday... with all that said, I'll have ample time to myself to explore and if you know where/what in atlanta is worth checking out... LET ME KNOW!!
Well, today I need to work on the process of getting rid of some feelings. And later Kevin and Matt are doing Freddies so I'll be there, and probably drinking the emotions away!