Last week friday, I decided that I would play basketball with some co-workers and random people at the nearby community center. It's a good workout, and even though I'm not good, I try. So when one guy was on a fast, I ran to keep a body on him. And I jumped in an attempt to block his layup(while running), and landed directly on my heel. It sucked, and it hurt, but I played on. I ran on my toes for that foot, and played for the next half hour. Afterwards, I went to the nurse, and she put Ice on it, wrapped it, and told me I should stay off it. She even lent me a cane, to help me get around. I followed directions that first day, icing it and trying to stay off it. But since then, I've been slacking. I walked around alot Saturday, Sunday I went to ATL and everyday I walked on it. Most times without the cane. Its like a narcissistic,self-centeredness that leads me to think I can take the pain, or that somehow I'll be better for it. Even today it still hurts at times, and I am not moving around as much.... but still I'm going about this the wrong way. Everyday I'm expecting it to feel better, but I wonder if the healing process takes more than just "time". I think I should go to a doctor and get a professional opinion, maybe even an x-ray.
With that being said, I realize that this tendency transfers into other areas of life. Like right now, I'm hurting on the inside. And I don't know how to deal with it. I know that nothing can come from all of the feelings I have inside, so obviously I need to get over them. But how? How do I stop feeling? Well, how to I take these feelings and put them in a shredder, so that they wont be put back together? Before it was easy, cuz the feelings were based on dreams, and when analyzed there was no foundation. But when there are roots that go within, how do you successfully get rid of whats left, and leave room for a future seed. I just want my heart to be healed. Or at least start the process. I don't want to lie to myself or find some type of replacement/distraction, I want to tackle this head on, so that I won't mess the future up, due to residual pain.
Anyone have a recommendation for treatment? Is there a doctor in the house?
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Damn, Justin. I feel exactly the same way. But unfortunately, I dont have a cure yet. I think the heart just takes time to mend. There is no real cure. Like the ankle, you have to give it time and rest to heal before you are able to use it, and play the game again.
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